AF=Annoying as Fuck

I am convinced that Aunt Flo just loves me so much that she can't get enough of me. Always visiting and even early sometimes. Just..can't..stay..away! What was I really expecting this time anyway? Different than the last 22 months? Pshhh. Let's move along.

Clearly I got the visit today. They are always the worst days as it can't be anymore in my face that I'm not pregnant (and can I add that I just watched a video of a woman giving birth in a bath tub on Tosh.0...wtf? maybe it can get more in my face).

I have to call the RE tomorrow to let them know I started so they can hurry the eff up on their plan for us. It's been up in the air whether we would even try this cycle because I am headed to Texas at the beginning of August which could quite possibly be my fertile time. But we couldn't tell that til I started. Well it's gonna be cutting it close. Like really close. Even if I am on injectible meds, there is no way to tell how my body will handle the drugs and I could ovulate later than normal and enjoy the side effects for nothing. Sooo, I guess we will see when I call tomorrow. 

I have to mention that I had a wonderful conversation with a very dear friend of mine this weekend. One whom is pregnant. It was a very needed conversation. One that allowed me to shed a tear or two. And it was all over talking about a song that takes me into the future watching John holding his baby for the first time. Holy shit, where do all these tears come from? Just typing about it gets me all emotional. Exactly what I want before heading to bed :-/  She is a great listener. In turn I listened and asked questions about her pregnancy. It was a like a mini therapy session for me. She knows who she is and I thank you for allowing me to get out some things even though it directly relates to your happy time. You don't know how much it means to me.

John and I took off to Mt. Pleasant this weekend to see a concert at the Soaring Eagle Casino. It was awesome to just let loose and forget about all the worries in the world. One including my one and only baby girl getting on a plane for the first time and heading out west with her grandparents (her dad's parents) for 2 weeks...all without  me. I'm doing alot better with it than I thought. I have talked to her several times so far and she is having a great time.

Well I'm signing off for now. I'm sure I will have, yet, another update this week as to what we plan on doing. And perhaps some answers on my tests from last cycle.

Toodles!