Fail # 3 is just the beginning to a shitty week

AF showed up Sunday, June 10. I had some major cramping on my way to work Friday morning, June 8th. When I got to work, I rushed to the bathroom thinking I had started. Nope. I went all day rushing to the bathroom only to find nothing. I could have sworn I was for sure going to start Saturday morning. Nothing. So Sunday morning when I woke up to nothing again, I decided to whip out an HPT and test for the first time in over 2 years. It was stark white...I hate the feeling of being let down by a stupid stick because you have hope when you're testing. I stopped testing monthly in February 2010. I told myself I couldn't do that to myself anymore. So, believe it or not, it was easier to see AF show up, than to test like a crazy person and waste so much money. AF showed up a few hours after I tested.

My first appointment for the 4th and final cycle with the study was Monday, June 11 where I got my meds, ultrasound and bloodwork. They gave me an extra pill to take each day. So I took 3 pills for 5 days instead of 2 pills for 5 days.

 Fast forward to Friday which would be day 4 of meds. We were woken up early that morning by a phone call to inform us John's Grandma Gladkowski passed away. We knew it was going to happen soon, but it doesn't make it any easier. After work, my friend Cassandra and I went to Ann Arbor to meet up with our friend Kari for dinner. I drove Cassandra there and back. On our way back about 11:15 pm, I came to an intersection about 3 min from my house. It was a blinking red. I thought the other way also had a blinking red. I was wrong. Cassandra pointed to the car that was heading straight for us. I slammed on the breaks, but it was too late. They hit us on the passenger front right corner panel. Basically right at my front wheel. There was a cop that was just over the hill who heard the crash. He was there in no time. I called John and he was there quickly too.Cassandra had chest pains and my head hurt. I was taken to the hospital in an ambulance while Cassandra said she was fine. But on the way to the hospital with John, she started to feel nauseous and got herself checked out at the ER. They did chest x rays on her and a CTscan on my head. We both checked out fine. Just banged up and bruised. The seatbelt did a number to Cassandra's chest and the door provided a nice bruise on her arm. My seatbelt buckle did a number on my hip. The center console bruised up both of my legs. There were 3 teenage boys in the other car (Ford Edge) who all were fine. The biggest injury was a cut on a lip. Apparently they thought it was all cool and fun, laughing and joking, taking pictures and video. Later John told me he wanted to beat the crap outta them for that. At the time, they were laughing and such while his wife was in an ambulance. I was just so happy that they were ok since the accident was my fault.

The next morning, which was John's bday, I got up and I was incredibly sore. I found new bruises and new areas of soreness. I started reflecting on the accident and how everything happened. I'm pretty sure I hit my head on Cassandra's shoulder and that's why I had such head pain. The feeling I experienced after hitting my head was the scariest thing. I may have even blacked out for a nano second. When I was coming to, I was so disoriented and fuzzy. I called insurance, I went to see my car at the tow yard to get some things out of the car, and to the rental car place to get a rental. I also called the study coordinator about what happened. Because of the accident, I missed a day of my meds. They asked if I wanted to cancel the cycle and pick back up next month. I told them I couldn't because I was going on vacation and wouldn't be able to start the next cycle. So they had me take 2 doses in one day and come in as normal the following Tuesday. I did find out that my car is repairable. $9,000 in damages!! I just got it in February and I love it so much. If it was considered totaled, We would have had to put thousands towards the loan payoff. My hip is still giving me the biggest issue. I can walk without limping now, but  I have to be careful how I put weight on my leg/hip or it gives me alot of pain. Almost as if something slips or pops out.

Funny thing about the car insurance. We JUST switched car insurance and it went into effective Thursday June, 14. My accident was the very next day. Luckily the switch in insurance was a blessing because it's better and cheaper. It provides us with one accident forgiveness and therefore our insurance premiums won't go up. How lucky did I get?!

This week, I had 3 study appts in a row. Tues, Wed, and today. They asked me today if I wanted to cancel due to having 4 maybe 5 follicles that may release in case I was worried about multiples. Because John's count is low, I'm not worried about multiples. We haven't gotten pregnant once so far, so I'm not worried. I have to give myself the trigger shot tonight and our IUI is Saturday morning.

All of this craziness...all I can think of and look forward to is our Florida vacation. Below are some pics of the accident and my gnarly bruises ;-)


This is the other car

 After the initial hit, my back end swung around and hit their back door

 My car

 The back end of my car that hit their back door

 Right calf 2 days after accident

 Right hip 2 days after accident

 Right calf 3 days after accident

 Both legs 3 days after accident

 Left leg 5 days after accident

 Right calf 5 days after accident

 Right hip 5 days after accident

IUI Cycle # 3

Forgive me for my lack of posts. The rest cycle was exactly what I needed. Just relaxing and not worrying about the trying to conceive world. In fact it was needed also due to the approaching deadline we had at work. It certainly kept my mind busy. Plus we have started some major projects to the yard and landscaping at home. This has been an exciting couple months for us. Never thought I would be this elated over landscape design. My cycle started May 12. Got into the office on the 14th and started meds on the 15th. This is later than I usually start but I couldn’t get in any earlier. So I started meds on day 5 vs. the usual day 3. Because of this, the whole cycle was a bit delayed but it wasn’t terrible. I responded very well to the meds again having several sizable follicles on my right and one on my left. IUI was Sunday May 27th and we are now in the 2 week wait. I have already gone in for my mid 2 week wait appt for blood work and ultrasound yesterday which showed fluid in my left AND right tubes which indicates that I released eggs on both sides. So now I just either way til my period starts or my next appt for bloodwork for pregnancy test on Monday June, 11. I have to be honest, I really have no faith in this study anymore. I really don’t think IUIs will work with us with John’s sperm numbers and quality. They keep getting worse every month. First month was 2 million, the next month was .5 million and this month was .2 million. Like I have said before, it sounds like a lot but that is considered almost non-existent compared to the 10s of millions of sperm men should have. At this point, I’m ready for this study to be over. I’m tired of the appts and knowing in the pit of my stomach that this isn’t for us. I’m just going through the motions really. We have one more try after this time and then we will be done with the study. Just in time for our trip to Florida to visit my mother in law for a week. I’m so excited to have a REAL vacation. It’s been too long since we have had a week of nothing but vacation to do what we want. The last time we took a week off was for our wedding and we didn’t even go on a honeymoon. It was far from relaxing as you can imagine. We plan on taking Morgan to DisneyWorld for a day, Sea World, an Alligator farm, zoo and much more. You should hear from me within the next week for an update.